My issue's

Let me tell u about this list,
And everything in this life that I miss,
From my kids,
To my sis,
And my dad wherever he is,
This is it,
Call it quits,
I admit,
I ant fit,
To find all the time to unwind & just cry,
It's a crime to be fine well that's fine I'll just sign,
Away my life,
Ever since that night,
Ant nothing been right,
I'm about to ignite,
And despite that I might have to lie & cheat,
It's not right in your eyes but I have to eat,
In this speech I preach but only speak for myself,
I feel like dangling from this rope I'm in the need for some help,
So please just tell,
How u felt,
There's no doubt,
It can change,
Cause this world u with out I couldn't tell our explain,
All the pain,
We would gain,
Our sustain inside,
It's a shame that u claim that reason was cause I couldn't choose.