Dead body

Don't think you will ever know what you could of had on the long run,
We had our time and all trust me I have no regrets I had the best of fun!
What was there will always be somewhere in me,
Whether you care or not I know one day you'll recognize some proverbs in my actions yet it'll be to late to see.
She should have been different and grasped this feeling I call her mess,
Even though she was the best I feel like it was the right thing to do I felt blessed.
Now I'm doing what's best and I don't even know how to handle this,
But being successful sounds like my type of party and that's my desired wish.
I care for the things your not suppose to care for,
I might feel stupid sometimes or look like I'm bored,
When really all I do is think,
I'll sit around and observe without a blink.
I'm trying my hardest and that's all that matters for my future can't she see,
Through everything my escape is the dankest rolled up medicinal trees.
Now I'm here realizing all I needed was her friendship,
I took it to far and fucked it all up ain't that some shit.
Whats crazy is the fact that I'm an even better person I accept all this cause I believen a little karma,
I had a bad past and I'm on the verge of flipping my life around and you choose to play me darn yaaaa!
I promise to never look back,
I don't need another girl to lack.
Adapting like if I'm brand new,
Fuck everything I am the truth.
Miss the old you,
When I picked you up from your blues.
Take it all though take my everything for granted,
I didn't mean for my feelings to be planted.
I know what I want out of life,
Now no one expects me to strive.
One day I'll get there,
I'll be happy in my fat ass house as a doctor and yeeeah I'm a pretentious square!