My Lovely Lesson

We were never friends..
Hadn't had any history..
We were strangers..

Met online, she said I was adorable,
then chatted from there..
Couple next days we then hung out,
Simply cause we could..

We were cool and casual,
talked about what you normally don't..
Like "oh wow, we're both left handed" and
"this happened in my past",
that "get to know each other thing",
asking random questions..

But we never seemed like we could let out our inner visions,
Our depth of our personal focus..
Without it sounding like a foreign language or completely irrelevant..
All we can share was the feelings we had from each other..
Which was ultimate comfort due to our immense compatable vibes.

Our images didn't seem to match..
But our vibes' fit.
We're compatable pieces from alternative jigsaw puzzles.

Within a month in
I leave, my heart told me too.
I found I had more depth with my friends,
Than I did in a relationship that was sincerely managable.
No arguements, No drama, day to night we were good,
Never felt awkward, always comfortable.
She was my first kiss and experience with sex..

But..
I just couldn't be me, I couldn't share what i'm about with her
My activities and interest could not grow with her, and her's with me..
When it came to me being me, my complexities were released,
And that's what broke me apart, and wasn't easy to understand..
Even I was boggled of my own personal discovery..
I was bound upon release one way or another..

I've found,
The magnitude of this relationship idea..
I must notice it without looking for it..
It must happen before I even know of it..
It must grow through connection..
It needs the relevance, to keep us connected..
It's my only way. - AtR