Because I'm Afraid

Because I'm Afraid
I lock myself in
my room where no one
but my walls can mock me

Because I'm Afraid
I blast my music
straight into my ears
In the hope that I go deaf

Because I'm Afraid
I walk out into this world
With an oh-so-real fake smile*
Stretched painfully across my lips

Because I'm Afraid
I speak so loudly
And so much,
No one will notice I say so little*

Because I'm Afraid
I let myself become a mirror
That will reflect to you the person
You believe I should be

Because I'm Afraid
No one will even dare
to question the extreme
Fragility of said mirror

And it's because of my walls,
My music,
My oh-so-real fake smile,
My frequent speech,
My mirror like tendencies,
And that I can brake just as easily as any mirror,

That no one will hear me utter these words out loud...

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1*= a smile that looks real but is actually forced
2*= never saying anything that actually matters

Just though I might clear those two lines up. I feel like I'm bad at explaining myself to others while I'm writing.... sorry!