My journey

A young poet
with no vision
only a Kid 
with a dream
a nightmare I couldn't escape
corrupted by anger 
later evolved to hate
to the point where I wrote a letter 
how I was better off dead

only way to release my stress
just wanted to write
writing was a drug 
the words were a dose to ease the pain
I wrote every time I was angry
expressing my feelings in a way
to release all the bad memory
into writing short stories 

i was stuck in my shy and passive shell
till one day i told myself
I can no longer fix a solution
if it can't be fixed by itself
to be able to make a change
you have to fix oneself 
one day I tried something new
changed my negatives
into a positive message

took a jab into writing poetry
but it was just a beginning
A poet was transforming
I learned the hard way quickly
poetry is better written 
with pain and emotions.

it took me two years to write
 "A Woman's Thought Process"
after a bad heart broken relationship
depressed and dead to the world
i came back to continue writing
the relationship inspired me to write
the moment of enjoying "A Simple Kiss"
valued items women cherish 
most men won't ever think of

"Words of the Unspoken"
You need a smile, honesty, and respect
and don't fail to realize every woman can be 
broken into millions of pieces
only to rely on matter of hope
I've found a way to merge 
the fallen pieces into one 
it's true every woman has a story
and all answers are in a woman's heart

I was lead down a dark road
series of unfortunate events
"Summer of 2011," was a course of self destruction
from ankle surgery to my dying father 
for a long brief moment 
i thought I would lose him
with no will power and hope
the pain brought me down
ate me up inside and out
I had to continue writing 

to ease the pain 
to nurture the hate
got to the point where it was hard
to bottle up all my emotions 
i was controlled by so much hate
due to the lock up of my brother in 2012
locked up based on rumors and lies.
after a year and a few months
i had to be the man of the house
I had to lead the weak to be strong

it was hard to sleep 
because I was "Dreaming A Reality"
a poem that inspired me 
when my brother was charged for murder
looking at my life turn upside down
i had to suppress the hate
and finally put it at rest

over the years it was just bottled inside
i had to finally let it out
that's when i finally wrote a letter to my mother
"Dear Mom," expressing my feelings
that came from the heart 
How I appreciated her more than anything
But inside, I was scared
Scared she wouldn't accept my love
 and so It took me a while to give it to her

I finally gave it to her on mother's day 
when everything was going down hill 
to make her day better 
she accepted my love towards her
since that day I became a poet
no longer forcing my emotions only
my "confessions" speaking out

this is my journey of becoming a poet 
the reasons behind my writings 
and stories behind every poem 
no longer writing to release stress
but to express my emotions to the world
for anyone who can relate
this is me and my journey of a poet