Autobiography

we had hurried
it was damp
loud and shaking
the light turning
i was crying
laughing at me
mother always watching
kids were swinging
yelling out names
christmas tree drawings
laughing at me
cans and bottles
who's the help
janitors for grandparents
singing and dancing
yelling and screaming
judgement is passed
laughing at me
books piling high
friends coming over
things are forgotten
judgement is passed
a mirrored room
dad visiting me
police are staring
mother always watching
judgement is passed
he is invading
god hates you
i hate me
they love me
i hate me
laughing at me
every two weeks
hamburgers and fries
old cars break
crashing and bloody
twice per month
the ground shakes
other mother sobs
dad is disappearing
it was damp
i was crying
the light turning
he was invading
new kids laugh
new kids poke
these kids attack
I am distraught
gazing through me
lost in space
twice a month
dad is disappearing
pay me now
he choked me
pay me now
kids attacked me
laughing at me
poking at me
gazing through me
judgement is passed
It was damp
I was crying
then it happened
he was there
i was there
we were one
the sun rises
the sun sets
the earth turns
i grew up
i grew down
we were one
she was invading
she stole him
she stole me
we fucked around
hair grew long
speaking other languages
throwing out garbage
we're one again
sleeping all night
sleeping all day
sex is new
sex is good
sex is nice
sex, yes twice
dating is next
we were one
judgement is passed
mother always watching
now i'm attacked
god hates you
i hate me
he loves me
one loves me
twice a week
now its old
i draw now
now its old