Sister Of Mine..It Your Time..Not MIne

this is the start of her story it real and not fake...its about my big sisters ametuer mistake...when i saw she was diffrent today...she usually jokes and have interesting things to say...to people who know me they know i dont play...i never speak till im needed they say...that buzz your having makes me dazed and confused...it so fucked like like a pair of left shoes...never know who wins addiction or you...sounds funny coming from me you see...she saved my life when i was 23...i stared drugs at 14 it was her who watched who saw my abuse...its so funny to even see her use...i cant even start a fight it wouldnt be right to try and save u now just not while your high tonight...my memorys haunt me even in my sleep i had fun moments that i can say i wont tread water they are mine to keep...i won no battle i fought to deep...i fell again and again till my heart didnt bend...i left your grip over and over again...i showed my colors i had no friends...no matter how u look at it not tonight i cant give u no hope it just a buzz to you just simply dope...dont become me dont be the bad joke...they are looking at you they snicker right now...tommorrow i ll tell u ill say it out loud...i come here alot to score for a friend ....i no better than u i will never judge u..ur my best friend...so tonight ill leave you be ill play pretend..a game i perfected ill slip around ur buzz undected...ill be the koolest ever to you i wont fuck up your vibe ill show real true...i know ur older i have work cut out ...just try and remember what i dish out...your words to me years ago...recycled your way so here we go...sleep good tonight ill stay with u ...i love you sissy we can make it through...the world had a reason to show this pratice...im choking my tears as you sleep on the matress..tommorrow ill do what you did...we grow old and laugh at what we stupidley did...today ur the baby im the big kid....sister love is real and fantastic...we play that song well we dont even practice...