Your Death

Everyday as I wake up I wonder if today will be the day. I wonder if you didn't get my message or if you can't reply anymore. I wonder if it will be the day I go to school and your not there. Okay, your just sick...I hope. Then a call comes in over the intercom. They want me to go to the councilors or maybe the office so my mother can tell me. Either way I get there and who ever it is looks at me and says it. Says that they found you this morning in a pool of your own blood. You had done it. The thing you always wanted to and stopped me from doing. You killed yourself. After they tell me I just sit there as my world shatters. I've lost you...You're gone..I'm crying just thinking about it as I write this. Just think of your funeral how crushing it would be to see you lying there the full effect finally taking hold on me. I would be lost...I don't know how long it would take but given some time I would follow you in your choice. You don't realize how much you mean to me as a friend or as an ex-lover. I still love you...always have and always will.