Suicide thoughts

Suicide thoughts
Am I crazy for these thoughts?
Life seem to be pointless with out no
meaning
I cry for help but seem nobody can hear my cry
Each cuts on my body only show my suicide thoughts
Cold in my mouth heavy in my hand
Gunshot ring in my ear as I lay flat on the brown wooden floor which slowly turn red.....
As I take my last breath...
I ask myself am I crazy for these suicide thoughts?