I lied

What do I say?
Where do I go?
There are just so many emotions,
That I don't want to show

I'll always be known as second best
My mind will always be this mess
And I don't admit to my crimes

I did say " I love you" first
But when you did it really hurt
You're love is based off of something I'm not
Yet I say they're real with a mental road block

One lie and a can't stop
I just can't lose you
Even though I said
Go when you choose