my life

My life
I have tried all my life to run away,
But I never seem to make it.
I lived with fear, pain, hurt and sorrow
But no one ever seemed to care.

All I see is darkness,
All I hear is nothing.
I have cried so much that tears don’t flow no more,
I have been hurt so much that pain has become my shadow.

My heart beats with every step,
I feel I might just disappear with the next.
I have heard death screaming so loud that I even can’t hear it.
I have felt my life fading away.

When I was young I never had dreams,
When I was young all I had were nightmares.
I always saw myself falling,
But I never reached the bottom.

Now I realize that it’s not a nightmare,
I never had nightmares,
All this while I have been living a nightmare
Shadows surround me everywhere even though I can’t see them.

I feel this pain on my chest,
It grows with every breath.
It’s as if claws are trying to rip out my heart.
I have long hoped it would end
I have long prayed to be saved

I have never seen myself before
I don’t know who I am.
I have never seen my hands before
I don’t know what they look like.

Have you ever felt like you are drowning?
You can’t breathe
You are confused
Well that’s how I feel.
That’s what I call my life!