Emotional Masochist

am i an emotional masochist
or do i feel like I deserve the pain
am i just lying to myself
not raising my hopes to keep me sane

I felt like i deserved more
but life felt differently
I felt like it was the only way
My heart felt differently

(chorus x2)
Without the bad
I’d never appreciate what we had
I’d be desensitized to your love
give me a scapegoat, give me some balance
give me a scapegoat, give me some balance

my mind... is going in circles
The holes... are different shapes
nothing is fitting together
the emptiness frightens me

do i want any of this
am i damned either way
do i want the truth
am i damned either way

(chorus x2)
Without the bad
I’d never appreciate what we had
I’d be desensitized to your love
give me a scapegoat, give me some balance
give me a scapegoat, give me some balance