Ending it all

I have thoughts of suicide.
I think that it would be better if I did not live in this world.
Right now I am all alone.
No one shows their true feelings towards me.
No one shows that they care.
Not one single person on this earth can change how I feel about myself.
I have always hated myself.....
my looks....
my body.
Every single part of me I hate.
I'm not pretty...
definitely not skinny.
I am the most unattractive girl in this world.
I have always wanted to slice my throat.
Watch the blood flow out of my neck as I am dying.
Or blowing my brains out would be nice.
My brains would splatter all over my white stained walls.
Cutting my wrists wouldn't be enough.
I want something that is quick.
Ending it all would make everyone's lives easier.
They wouldn't have to worry about me getting angry or depressed.
They wouldn't have to worry about feeding me.
Ending it all is something that I have been thinking about for a long time.
But the question is when will I do it .