I'm Sorry, I Knew

Shouldn't silent sobs be the loudest cry?
Shouldn't smiles not be the biggest lie?
We live and we breathe.
We lie and we deceive.

Do you all love making my world crash?
Do you really have to watch and laugh?
What did I do to make everyone hate me?
What do they see that I don't see?

Am I not pretty enough?
Am I not a little tough?
I always thought that I stood strong.
I always thought a part of me would belong.

I'm sorry, I knew I would disappoint.
I'm sorry, I knew my existence didn't have a point.
I'm tired of this boring word play.
I'm tired of waiting for people that never stay.

I wont continue being sad over temporary drama.
Everyone will get their own taste or Karma.
I'm not the kind to give up after a small fight.
I'm not the kind to let my dreams out of sight.

Maybe I don't belong here at this moment.
I still have to make the best of it.
I'm sorry, I knew you expected me to lose.
Too bad. This is my life and im going to choose.

I'm going to choose where my life goes.
I'm going to choose what emotions I show.
I won't allow you to ever hurt me.
It'll be too late when you finally see.