When you're numb you long to feel

you're best left unfeeling
but it kills you whether you choose to or not

numbness slowly feeds till you're all over cold
can lie on the floor of your hallway
screaming
and feel like you're falling
off 4 story buildings
when in reality you
already
fell.

feelings are sharp
they're inconsistant
but reduce you to behaving incapably
so inescapably

one offers the highs, giving you further to fall and more bones to break

while one's grinding away at the cartilage slowly

it's a grisly business
but either way you're bleeding

when I'm numb I bleed for me
when I feel, I bleed for you

can't ever win, really.