I Killed You Papi, Sorry!

I remember when you told me
"Jahmiek take care of yourself"
the last words you spoke
lying on that hospital bed
in front of me
in pain
pain
something internal

sometimes I smile at the memories
of the faces you used to make every time I would cry
pain
I felt pain and discomfort
watching you lay there
im crying
and here go the faces
even in your death bed
you still manage to make me smile
a great amazing soul
trapped inside a dying body
a body filled with disease
an incurable disease
it was my fault you know
my fault
my bad that I didn't stop you
I watched you
I watched you smoke cig after cig
I should've stopped you
I could've
I could've prevented this
but I didn't
I killed you papi
sorry....