Daddy Please, Help me find my way...

 Dear Daddy,

I’m sorry for what I’ve done,
I let it win again,
This addiction hurts a ton,
I can no longer let it win…

You showed me I am better than this,
You guided from the start,
Ignorance is bliss.
I cant live without a heart.

You know you are my hero,
Please help me prove I’m done.
I want to be a brave girl,
I have to prove I’ve won.

I cannot live another day,
Knowing I’ve hurt you,
Please, daddy, help me find m y way.
I promise that I’m through.

I never chose to live life this way,
I should have taken notes from you
And watched you day to day.
Now I’m ready dad, what I say is finally true.

Life is so painful to obey,
No matter what I do,
Ill never be that perfect girl,
I keep disappointing you.

I try and try to be good enough,
I try to do everything you say
I fail at pulling through,
Please dad, help me find my way…

Why is there no cure for me?
I’m suffering and dying here,
I have to lock this up, you see
Or I wont ever be freed,

If only you would show me how to live so happily
Please help me find the one and only key.
I shut out all my anger, was this your strategy?
The answer is somewhere close, I can almost see

You are the wisest man I have known,
And the bravest from the start.
The only one left to save me,

The answer is in your heart.
I can see the answer now,
You’ve had it all along.
I wasn’t able to see how,
But you were teaching me right from wrong…

I wasn’t seeing the path clear
No one had the answer, from deep down in your core,
My answer had been near.
Its what I never prayed for…

From time to time it glanced at me,
And peeked out from your sole,
The answer wasn’t money,
Your love will make me whole.

I looked in all the wrong places,
I wanted more and more,
But all that more would have had me dead,
And now I have to explore,
No one had ever given or said,
How much this mends my heart that had tore.

Before I can earn your golden key
I have to learn to love to be me,
She’s smiling now, she feels so free
Thanks daddy, You’ve helped me start to see.

The answer wasn’t money,
My emotions flow by tear
Its time to look up now dad…
I don’t have to hide in fear…
I won’t look back, for this life is the best I’ve ever had.

It’s your heart of love I now feel,
Where was it all along?
Suffering was a must for me, now its time to heal.
I will let you in and hold on for lifelong.

I refused to see it there before,
To see what was really true,
I had to believe there was happiness in store.
All I have needy Dad, All it was is you…

I want to think you didn’t want to walk away…
I know it hurt, and broke you up
You’ve been waiting; it was worth it for this day.
I promised you I could do it, I would someday measure up!

It was a key made all of your love,
The answer was your heart…
Glistening gold from sun rays high above,

I’m looking ahead now; I have a fresh new start.
My selfishness I’ve let go of,
Now we wont feel so far apart...

I am here to stay,
Lets make some new memories,
Life’s so much better this way,

Second chances do happen,
Though a million chances are few,
Please let me make it up to you,
I can’t live a life without you,

You have uplifted my way of thinking,
Introduced me to a whole new way,
I no longer will be sinking,
I rise high for each new day

I am your loving daughter,
I will fight this come hell or high water…
I will love you unconditionally,
As long as you can now love me for being me!