I Love It

happiness is rare

i don't have it but i'm searching
i'm gripping onto it but i can't grab it
i've grabbed it but i can't grasp it

i'm out of breath
don't you hear my soul gasping?

you're attacking my mindset as if i'm exaggerating
i'm captivated by your effort

you're fearing my life
i can smell it

i'll take you to another world with this shit
this shit is reckless
it's chaos
it's so beautifully put together
it's a hectic mess

i can't think with this mind of mine
if you dare help me i'll leave you sick like an abondoned child with swine
is that fine?

my lungs are pleading silently
i suffocate my heart with answers to my questions
i'm asking but i'm not begging

'shhh...speak softly'
my nightmares are resting
they'll be awake in a second
get the weapons ready
they're deadly

breathing heavily
i'm a God but i'm not heavenly

you're addicting like a drug but you're sickening
you're scrimaging through my mind like a lost mystery

i love it