I am dying

I am dying
On the outside im isolating,
On the inside im deteriorating,
With horrid visions and voices,
Psychosis sets in for good.
Hope has seemed to left me,
Depression beamed down on me.
The hibernating dark cloud stays now,
waiting to strike,
creating despair,
intimidating my soul,
aggravating my mind.
With the walls cracking,
creaking,
And crumbling,
Their coming down for the better.
Terror of the hurtful judgement,
Verbal strength remains,
Veins ripped and burned.
Oh the woes I have caused myself,
Overflows my mental capacity,
Two fingers to my temple,
For liquors have gotten the best of me,
Finally this pest will fucking die.
For it being the darkness killing me,
Fueled by solace, The decision is made,
Pow, nothing but a lifeless carcass now.