my trip home

my world falls and crumbles around me
i stand here afriad to move
i lost you the love of my life
my gaurdian angel my savior
you were my every thing and now your gone
and this time i cant get you back
i take this razor to my arms slicing deeply
cutting till my arms are numb
even then i continue to slice them open
as the blood runs down my arms i begin to laugh
it goes from tear like drops to a river of red
i slice into my legs letting the blood run down my body
as i lay in my bed tears flowing heavily as i feel my life fading away
i begin to pray
asking god to help me i pray that he shows you how much u meant to me
i ask him to show you that you were my gaurdian angel my one and only
i pray to god asking him that he lead me into the next world
i feel deaths hand upon mine telling me to come home
i close my eyes saying may i be blessed and guided on
                  my trip home