epiphany of epiphanies!

life is just to damn serious for a feeble mind like mine. I miss the good ol days where i could just get high and play video games like guitar hero. I mean why the hell do we have to grow up and live for a greater or worser cause?? for money!!! thats all its about, all its ever about and all its ever gonna be about. I just wanna live and let live, is that to fucking hard to ask?? say i'm thinking goofy from the lack of sleep, judge as you may but you know what, I really don't give a flying hoot, my spirit is to withered at 22 and for what???? beliefs and what not?????? is it really worth the effort, seriously???? am i really gonna suffer for infinity just cause I laugh at certain things or didn't do enough to be unselfish?? that don't seem fair at all. aint my fault someone suffered and died for something i do wrong so that I could live on streets of gold and in peace and harmony, I never asked to be born in the first place. I was just fine before life and i think i'll be just after life and you know how I know???? the same exact way you believe your going to heaven/hell/purgatory/ or wherever you think you are going if you think you are going anywhere, cause someone or something told you and you agreed on it. and Saraya Marie, I love and care for you but not cause i am forced to or i feel i have to but because I want to. I hope we work out our differences and make things truly right between us again. As for all the other shit people wanna believe, More or less power to you, I could really give a flying hoot. well, I think this has been the best epiphany yet!