Sadness (by Gothic Love)

No matter what I try to do.
It always backfires.
Always bites me back.
No matter how good my intentions are.
They seem to bring misery.
Sadness always accompanies me no matter what.

Why does it seems fate is nothing but cruel?
I try to fix my mistakes, but they just become worse than before.
Disappointing others seem to be my occupation.
No matter how hard I try to do something good.
I know that you don’t care.

No matter what, it never seems to satisfy.
It just brings more troubles.
I just want to be alone.
Because I don't want to break boundaries.

A tear of sadness falls.
A tear of loneliness follows.
As I'm feeling empty inside.
I feel so sad.
You're the reason why I feel bad.

I don't want to believe what you said all this time.
Don't want to accept all the insults that have been exposed.
Nothing good will happen if I do.
But slowly, I'm starting to doubt myself.

I'm vanishing from where I stand
Cause I know you’re not there
I don't know where to go.
Since this place, this is not a home.

You scream when I do a good thing.
Scream when I do a bad thing.
Hurt me when I'm right and when I'm wrong.
My body can't feel anymore, it is numb.

I've learned that you'll be disappointed in me.
No matter what I do, fights will ensue.
Words will be exchange every second.
My anger boils as it passes critical levels.
Deep inside I hate everything about you.

If home is where my heart is and there is no trust.
Then my heart has lost all hope.
Because you'll never acknowledge me.
Never praise me, never accept me.

Which is why sadness seems to follow so easily.
Because all I know is sadness.