Attract and Subtract

I start you with a purpose
Now I toss you to the wind
Everything we've made us
I'll destroy it in the end

All the feelings you've shed
I've only just begun
Any person you bed
Will never be that one

I won't count my blessings
For love is just a curse
With no real future pressing
You are not my first

These tears fall without assistance
My misery knows no boundary
I thought our love had substance
So I must leave you floundering

My heart went to you
But it can't grow without light
Everything that I've been through
Prepared me for any plight

So I run from us
You will never know me
This isn't about trust
It's about what could be