Hate

Hate.
they all say its such a damn powerful word.
it means enough to me to only live with that word as my lifes basis.
im fuckin miserable.
call me pitiful.
you havent lived what the fuck i have.
even if your life was or is worse..i dont care.
i dont even care about myself.
so you think id even for the slightest..even for a fuckin spec in time.....care about those that have fucked me over....your a fool.
my life is everyone elses..i cant even claim it as if i had even lived it for a moment.
im not even alive in anyones eyes..
im invisible..to......everything that is...alive.
a flame couldnt burn me..water cant drown me..a bullet cant pierce this shell.
im not invincible..you have to be alive to have that gift.
im not dead...
because i was never alive.