Just Me

I've never been perfect
I've never been alright
The demons inside
Keep me up at night
My eyes are dark
My face a mask
Keeping myself restrained
Is my biggest task
I used to turn to you
But I've started to change
Love barged in
Everything feels strange
I've created this distance
Built a new wall
But it isn't you
It's not your fault
I destroy what i love
It must be true
Everything I've done
Everything I've been through
My emotions are crippled
My heart is behind bars
I sit and stew
Over old wounds and scars
So I stand with questions
I lack any real answers
This problem of us
Eats me like cancer
How do I change?
What do I do?
I'm scared of this love
But I can't lose you
You're so far away
But so close at times
So here I've laid bare
My heart and mind
You're always in my thoughts
I hope this makes sense
No matter what happens
I love you regardless