I'm Dead

My world is falling, crumbling apart, life is meaningless & that's just the start My hearts so sore, I can feel it breaking & I swear to god it leaves me shaking Late at night till early in the morning, lying in bed eyes wide open. Didn't sleep last night, like all the others, instead I just lie crying in the covers Quick, wipe away all the tears before they come near. must hide this depression & the feelings of fear For all they know I'm happy & always smiling, but deep inside my soul is dying I can feel it rotting, it wants to scream, but I won't let it... not for the time being I can never tell them how I feel cause the happiness I wear to them is real For them to hear that I wish I was dead... it would kill them, they'd be filled with dread So I'll try my best no to be selfish, I'll keep my secret hidden & just let them rest but god I can't take it much longer... I'll probably be dead before they even wonder.