Birth, Death, Re-Birth, Rapped and Died, Re-Birth one last time ...

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ANOTHER fine day to feel like SHIT ....why.    
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I just can't seem to figure it out.         
I try ... really I do.        
But she doesn't see it.        
I think ... ummm maybe she does ...??          
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I'M JUST a 43 old man, alone, trying to be the best I can be.    
My Heroin addicted mother pulled me from her fuck hole at the ripe old age of 13.    
Only to Over-Dose on black tar 5 years later from my oh so caring mother-fucker of a father piece of shit.  
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I WAS now re-born again at the age of 6.    
I'm not fully alive though, as "they" abuse my body, I slowly die again.  
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....(personal comment inserted here)  
....(I will find you people, I know who you are.
....(OHHHHH .... WHAT FUN WE WILL HAVE WHEN I DO.  
....(end of personal comment)  
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I WAS born one last time. But the inner workings of my human life form are not functioning correctly,    
so it seems. Should I leave my fragmented shell behind and transfer to the next life ?    
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No....... I don't want to hurt her. She is ALL I got, and she is also ALL I want.    
I will work on the broken parts and ask the golden man for help once again. Help rebuilding the core and reactor of my soul.    
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I AM in Love when we fit together, like a shiny new key in a perfectly formed lock,    
I will try again to sharpen the tips of my key.    
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I CAN only hope she keeps her lock open, wide and accepts my key once again.          
         
Be Good.          
For Love I Do.          
Me John for her.          
Yes you !          
Dia I Love You          
         
 = iN.4.LiFE =          
         
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