Depression through my eyes

Depression is when you feel worthless
Like no one could careless
Depression is when you don’t care what happens next
Like crying whenever you see a text
Not caring when you do a test
Depression is when your dreams are better than reality
To sleep is the best thing for me
Sleeping makes me forget about the pain I feel
Like everything that happened wasn’t real
Depression is when you are so angry all the time
Where you can’t even make up your mind
Your brain is blocked
With all these emotions
Depression is crying all the time
Never feeling like everything is going to be alright
Like no happiness will ever be in sight
Depression is when you don’t want to do anything
When you’re not interesting in anything you used to love
People I just push and shove
That way I don’t hurt them
But then I hurt myself because everyone I need I push away
Maybe I shouldn’t have done that ,but still I felt betrayed
Depression is when you have no hope
I don’t know how to cope
Depression makes you feel like everyone is against you
It feels like everyone isn’t telling you the truth
They hide their judgement
Just because they know they will give you disappointment
But I know what they all think
It’s not hard to figure it out
They still don’t exactly know what this is about
And they will never know
Cause I will never share with them how I feel
Because they aren’t people that I can trust with something real
Something so serious
They think I can get over this
But it’s easier said than done
I will never tell them what’s going on.