hiding behind a mask

I hide behind a mask
Being happy is just a task
Smiling just to get through the day
Making everyone think that I’m okay
No one sees through the pain behind my smile or through my eyes
I guess I didn’t trust anyone enough because they of all their lies
I’m in some other dimension
I couldn’t give you an exact description
I cover up all the pain for the happiness of others
But what if one day I can’t hold it back anymore
Will anyone care?
Will people just stop and just stare?
I keep losing people one by one
As they go a part of me becomes undone
I guess I was too hard to handle
I’m sorry I wasn’t the light to your candle
I try so hard to be happy for everyone
But it’s hard when you think you have no one
I feel alone in the world
Like a lost soul
My happiness is what you stole
I will only show the girl behind the mask to the people who care
The people who I know won’t leave
The people who will be there when I grieve
I’m sorry that sometimes I am hard to talk to or hard to be around
I promise that I will try to my best to better
So that the people around me become happier.