BITCH

WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING!
I don't understand
Life is simple
We eat, we breathe and we shit
We survive
What the hell is making it so fucking complicated!
This is ridiculous
This game we play
I am tired of being so reliant on you!
I was so independent, you took that away
So, what, I'd never leave you?
So you wouldn't be alone?
SO THAT WAY MY LIFE WOULD REVOLVE AROUND YOURS!
Was it so you could hurt me?
Scar me?
As you flirt with that rancid cock sucker!
While you tarnish all that I cherished about you,
I sit in silence.
WHY DID YOU SIT NEAR ME!
I can't look at you.
All I see is the filth and vomit you caused me to become
I can't help but stare
Try to remember the love
Our love
But it is blocked and fragmented
It is broken, by that murderous bitch
And you are just as much at fault
YOU LET HER KILL US
YOU LET THIS HAPPEN
THIS MISERY
THIS DESPAIR
You said you don't want me to disappear
Well I would be prepared
I won't participate in your dirty games

I saw you
Nothing changed
I sat in pain while her face was in your tits!
While her dirty, dirty face was on you
She poisoned you
I WANTED MORE FOR US
I WANTED TO BELIEVE WE COULD MAKE IT
DO YOU THINK I ENJOY THIS?
ENJOY BEING THE LOGICAL ONE
ENJOY BEING A BITCH
NOT HAVE HOPE BECAUSE I KNOW BETTER
I don't like being the "dream-crusher"

I thought when I ended this
The jealousy would stop
The PAIN would stop
But all I can do is run
Pretend not to see you
Pretend not to see you smile and get along fine without me
Avoid you as much as possible
And eventually fade
So when we awkwardly make eye contact in the hall,
It will just be strangers.
Did I want this? No.
I am left with no other choice.
I am weak. I avoid pain.
And baby, you are the source of my pain.
You are the source because I let myself care
Again, and it ended just as awful.