RAGE

why can't I let it go,
my brain learned the lesson my heart refuse to know.
right now I sit and reminiscence,
my heart is heavy, and it's been a year since
since we have let go, moved on, yet I ran into one of your boo things and it brought it all back strong.
The pain i felt, the love misplaced, seeing her was a giant slap to my face
yet I am still fucking here mad she's still a friend and even with all we shared we have come to an end...*sigh*
these are raw uncut feelings, no edit, no i don't need no credits
this is bullshit! I've sacrificed many of my years to it.
Marriage plans wasted, all the love faded, and sometimes I still feel devastated.  
what the fuck am I intoxicated on a love past?  Why is my heart holding on to it's grasp?
I am an intelligent woman, strong and capable,
sometimes unbreakable, yet I fall into this rut that seems to be unshakable
THIS IS A RANT!
I need to get it all out of my system, tell myself you broke out you are no longer a victim, with him.
Damn but it all still hurts, I thought we would spend our lives together what the fuck was that worth.
Now these tears are falling from a well I thought dried up,
just when I thought I was on the cusp.
Now I'm sitting here feeling like a schmuck!
Im bout to light up and smoke this shit away.
Fuck it I have no more to say!