What is it ???

It's new to me...
Neither I can explain nor I can pertain...
Neither I can forget nor I can stop remembering...
It makes me feel a drizzle on a hot summer
Bloody hot in heavy downpour...
It makes me drink my sundae and eat my Coco shake ...
It makes me walk a mile alone in illusion tat you are wit me...
It makes me smile like an idiot thinking you are looking at me...
It makes me happy...excited...high..
Rubbing my goosebumps I come near to feel you...
Disappearing with my touch..you take away me....my smile...my laughter...my whole self...
Not having the courage to ask you whether you feel the same like me....
I remain closed in my cocoon waiting for you to open up...
Will this turn beautiful or die in suffocation ????