See you soon(no you won't)

See you soon    
No you won't  
I'm goin to bed    
Good  
because I'm done    
Not even sure what the fuck just happened    
Had a beer    
Then you were here  
over thinking  
everything I was saying    
You think I'm mad!  
why?  
Cause I always joke about paying?  
Brother you got another thing coming  
If that is the case that is
Although  
Perhaps Your right
When you say
subconsciously that my writing    
is based on everything      
Ive experienced while living    
(Then the holy ghost replied  
In the voice of my mind
calling these thoughts lies)  
All as i called you paranoid!    
And when i saw your eyes    
I think a part of me died    
 
 
Few minutes later, after bein stoned  
Had an "epiphany"    
After I cried    
   
But god dammit      
It's lost      
in my brain    
Because my nerves are tangled up      
like a ball of twine    
Cant stand back pain    
Leaning    
Against a wall    
Doesn't help  
it still feels like hell  
trying to straighten out my spine    
Writing this poem    
Pretending I'm fine    
Going over my thoughts    
Like connect the dots      
With invisible lines