Apolgies and Flowers

I was not myself lastnight. I cried silently within while my mind
raced frantically to think what was best for my own sake. I felt
like I had been swept ashore and shipwrecked from an ocean of thoughts in my head. I felt every part of my being ccollapsing in on itself suffocating me thin of air. I was deeply troubled and the more I fed my loneliness and depression the more fearful I became of myself. I cursed the heavens for giving me this life. I cursed God himself. I almost lost all sense of reasoning out the consequences of giving into the pain. I just feel so god damn lost and alone in a world not my own and it weighs heavily upon my shoulders.