so much better

I just want to  
mock the world and float
through life.
 
You want more and more,
until I am ready to
break.
 
My insults cut  
like razor blades
and your family
is repulsed by my
dark humor.  
 
You fake a smile and
feel stressed if  
you can't please  
everybody.  
 
Your ideal life
is filled with  
sunsets and  
light at the end  
of a tunnel.
 
Mine is the darkness
that strays from any  
form the light and leads
one to their demise.
 
I know this isn't
forever, but can you  
just hold me until  
you can do
so much better?