What of my Soul

My heart lays heavy in my chest
The kindness I had given I hoped was my best

At times tears fall down my cheeks in streams
For you were everything I had ever dreamed

That glorious time I had seen the light
Now everything is shadowed in black or white

I soared in rainbows in your arms
The colors so vibrant your body so warm

Feeling your eyes upon me dance
Caused every fiber in me to rise at full stance

It brought so much into my world
I floated on air and danced and swirled

Your magnificence inside me awoke my senses
Your voice alone drowned  all my defenses

I realized then the love I hid so deep
As if I had awoken from a long sleep

Dad had warned me true love never dies
I argued with him but he is so wise

He told me to bury it deep in my soul to stay
And take care of our child that before me lay

I struggled for years to keep it controlled
Even tried to give and receive love from others but only to fold

To have finally set it free from my souls locked spaces
All I have left are the lonely traces

I will respect your life path you have taken
But my life's journey to it roots have been shaken

I am going thru my day to day
With little hope I plod along the way

But still I find every once in a while
I think of you and find a slow smile..

For true love doesn't ever go
It's deeply ingrained in your soul

Would I make the same choice if there were do overs in life?
I've asked myself fifty times if not twice

Oh yes is the answer I hear my soul scream
For you are and always have been the only one for me

Pity me not and think of me kindly
For I didn't go into this blindly
It was our time

I am not sorry...