Ellie's Song

I spent most nights writing about meeting you
But now I only write about how I will never miss you
We had a lovely fake time together
It would've been nicer to know it was a game since the start
Not a playground where I just sit on
And you promised you loved me
And I believed every single word
Silence will always cross my mind
Like it does when I'm stuck inside my bed

You're hardly ever here and you're easily anywhere you shouldn't be
Your pillow could taste sweeter if you hadn't made me bitter as yourself
Now I'm hardly ever alive and I'm always here when I should be out there
Life gets so much easier when you admit you've done it all wrong
Please don't say you'll be right back, cause I've been waiting for too long

Dark dreams come to me from time to time
I'm holding the pain and grief as much as I can
But you haven't pulled it off yet, I'm still breathing
And as long as my lungs work, you'll see a lovely storm
And wherever it is that you go
Make sure that nobody follows you
Cause everyone needs a hiding place like ours
But a heart is only for one and not made to share
And whoever misses it is too smart to really care

My arms are so numb
All the things you are not
Torture me every time
You hide your pretty face behind
The curtains of death
But should I be concerned?