From me, To me

I'm stuck
I'm trapped in this deep gap in my mind
This pit-less gap that strips me bare
of all life and energy I hold
My friends;
gone
My family;
ashamed
The only person supporting me
Is the one getting money from me
As I look up to the only light I've allowed into my tunnel
I scream;
"why can't this all end!"
I've proved over and over to myself
that I don't deserve to be on this planet-
too selfish and unpleasant to hold any value
I've tried escaping from this brutal world that I've built myself
And I realize that this pit-less, desolate hole in my brain
Is the only thing protecting me
From myself-
A small favour,
                        from me, to me