Another Jagged Pill

do you know what I think?
I think I know was I feel
what goes on with me
bends and breaks my will

with shadows of doubt
I wonder of my strength
my words pouring out
sometimes a mistake

if I do not write the words that hurt
if I keep them locked away
would the feelings then revert
back to a different pain

to see the thoughts and pain inside
the sorrow that I feel
come across through words I write
another jagged pill

my thoughts that bleed upon the screen
flowing from the hands
the pain becomes a thing I see
my attention it demands

when I'm done and the title's on
and its safely locked away
for a moment all the thoughts are gone
in that moment I am safe

but when I dare to break the seal
and revisit my painful words
sometimes it seems so unreal
how much they really hurts