The Unknown

When he's gone I feel so empty and alone
Capable of a relationship is still unknown
Perhaps seeing that he is so young
I should just flee before I become unstrung
The sex is great this much is true
My mind so cluttered unsure of what I should do
I want so much more then he's willing to share
I ignore it look past it and still unaware
One day it will happen he will find someone new
Someone closer to his age....I will subdue
In the mean time I cherish what time I have left with him
If I look to far ahead everything turns grim
Sometimes I just wish I could turn my feelings off and on like a light switch
But I don't want to come off like a heartless insensitive bitch
I can't complain it does no good
Due to this game we call adulthood
Now he informs me he wants to try and be celibate
My thoughts to this are obstinate
More confused then ever my mind in awe
Feeling like a junkie going through withdraw
So from here on out I draw back how I feel
Making my heart cold and hard as steel