To Me

You're a monster,
you're a demon
and you're a screw-up.

You're pushy, insensitive
and emotional.
They don't believe your words
so you use none.

You're ugly,
you're too loud
and you don't listen.
These are the things they tell you;
you believe them to be true.

You're spacey,
you're wrong
and you can't sing.
Is it really true you hurt yourself?

You're stupid,
you're lazy
and you deserve the abuse.
These are the things you tell yourself.

You want
you need
and you feel selfish.

You push people away,
hoping they'll push back.
You build a wall of pain
to see who will climb it.

You search,
you love
and you hope.
This is what is on the inside,
buried deep beneath the pain.