my bullshit mind again...

every fucking time...it does not fail...
its me again , me and my fucked up mind
should i keep on ?  ok! just one more...
fucking bullshit....more painful memories....

i love this goddamn torture...
meaningless inner child of mine
ahhh..!! simple answer , simple question
looking for the right solution...
bullshit!!

i cant find myself again...
i cant react , i cant stop...i can stop
the feeling is way stronger than reality
my fucked up reality...

have i cry..?   yes i have !  yes i have...
invisible tears...the worst
tears from the heart...
tears from my soul...

i cant stand this....
the anger
the pain
the impulse
the impotence
myself...