For Joe - Senior Year 2002

When I was a kid
I met this guy in my soc class.
He always stared at me
and carved shapes into his arms
with his click pencils.

I thought he was scary..
I thought he was weird
until I decided to sit by him
one day and talk to him.

He never smiled...
he was too shy to strike
up a conversation.
But boy, when he realized I
was talking to him..I couldn't
get him to stop.

He would walk through the hall ways
and have his head down.
As soon as he passed me his head
would pick up and he'd acknowledge me.

One day, my "friends' asked what
I was doing talking to that "creepy kid".
An hour later, I was sitting with him at lunch
and they weren't my friends anymore.

I asked him to prom, we went as friends.
Took pictures and left after the 3rd song.
We hung out at the park just talking till
it was time to go home.
Just two friends having a great time.

I woke up the next day
with a horrible feeling inside of me.
I turned on my computer, which
I never did early in the day.

There was an email from him.
All it said was..
   "I'm sorry.
    Know you were my best friend.
    I just still couldn't do it.
    I love you."
        Joe

I ran to the school as fast as I could.
I ran in the office and there my teacher
stood with a paper in her hand and a
look on her face.

All she could say was "He took too
many pills, Megan".
Her eyes welled up with tears
and I fell to my knees.

The really bad part about it..
his mom didn't even care.
She went back to work the next day.

The next day I went to school..
walked in to the classroom to see
his desk empty.
I sat in his seat and on the desk
he had engraved with that damn
click pencil.

"J.H.G <3's M.E.B"
I never knew.
He never told me.

The girls in the hall looked at me
with remorse and I broke down
again.
I told them I was privileged to have
known him...and...
LOVE that "creepy kid"
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