spiral

the girl
strange girl
in the mirror
staring back at me with her cold,cold eyes
the girl
stubborn
out to break me
who am i if not me, i am
who i am
burning between secrets
lies
losing myself trying to survive  
lie to me please
i can't take the truth
lie to me some more
it feels better than the truth
don't you dare love me
love
hold me impurely, love
pure cruelity evil in disguise
beat me
beat me down
i want to survive the beating
so you see
i'm not weak i'm fearless
fearless
oh please believe me
i am not weak
i am fearless
universe full with people
evil
it kills
it will destroy
so be strong
don't get stuck
i'm stuck i need out
i bang my head against the wall
i bleed and bleed
until I fall
don't be afraid
no please dont go
survival mode
don't let your gaurd down
it's a trap
cant let you in
i won't trust you now
but who am I
walk away run far far away
the girl in the mirror
fading
where is she going
why must she leave
shes poison
poisoned, alone, and broken  
so just smile
dont cry
just smile and nod
right
its just a dream
dont worry
it will all be over soon
wake up
oh no its real
this world its still here
what now
look what you did
i think of the pain
every morning when i wake
i breathe the pain
in every breath i take
tick tock tick tock
time changes nothing
and somehow changes everything
you sad sad girl
when will you understand
confused
why
how do i save the world
its so wrong
i have to save the world
come back to me
little girl
where is your sweet innocence
where did you go
why did you go
i need your pureness
i need you child
please come back
gulp, gulp, gulp
I cant keep my eyes open
doctor
am i ok
help me
i think i have finally reached insanity
can i be saved
Dear God
there is no way you could have created me sober
my dear sweet god
you must take me away
take me back
try one more time