I Want To Fall

Beautiful desire why do I keep chasing after,
what makes me feel alive,
just breathe it in tonight,
just look up at the moon, it tells the secrets of my doom,
drowning me in apathy, lust and no good remedys,
will someone come and save me?
before this tarnished water takes me away,
i'm longing for the day that I can see myself for who i really am,
the day I stop thinking,
just grab me by my heart and pull me down this road,
that seems never ending, nobody is ever comprehending,
always down by empty promise, it's so hard to stay honest,
just tell me i'm okay, don't leave me astray,  
can I just run away?
or end it all?
nobody try to catch me, I want to fall...