a blank page

A blank page
Emptiness in my deepest thoughts
Questions, searching for more
Never satisfied with what is laid before
Wondering, seeking for the truth
Is this the life I am to lead?
Pages of the calendar fall to the ground
Can time really heal all open wounds?
Through sleeplessness I tread
Grasping for hope from a memory
Seeming to be from a time ages past
Motions thoughtout the day- survival
Unable to revel what really lies beneath
In my heart I am tired of life
What is my purpose where is my grace?
Beyond death something sweet
Joy and peace
But here I am torn between two worlds
This woman spared before all life drained away
Left to wonder why she is here
What is my purpose here in this world?
Guilty as long for more
My family; my children and my husband
Are all that keep me moving
Forward through the world in this life
As I try to fill this empty page
With just another day