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Weather(whether) or NOT

conversations dripping in the air
encrypted in the hush just dangling there

the humidity of the past drifts in arid streams
of heated polarity and sunburned screams

blistering my vocal chord in scorching reprieve
of bubbling venom,choking the life outta me

as TEMPERatures rise,such sweltering heat
slowly scorching my senses and i cant speak

thoughts saturated with bitter memories
that blurs my vision til my head feels cloudy

in a dense fog ,the culmination cause condensation
water spouts from my eyes out of sheer frustration

peeling thru layers like acid rain
drizzled on my mind,corroding my brain

while harsh winds whip and whittle away my skin
chiseling down to my heart seething within

soul's vunerabilities spill, swirl and swarm
a whirlwind of unspoken words, the perfect storm

how do i let go of this anger, when it is all i have
for years my love for you was fueled by my wrath

i dont know how to love u,i was never taught
for years i chased ur love and now its no longer sought

im afraid to trust you, still hurt by the last knife
confused cause i still want and need you in my life

now that there's a chance at a real father/ daughter relationship
i dont know how to get out of my own way and stop sabbataging it

maybe deep down i want you to hurt like i hurt when you weren't there
even tho i know that vengence and hurt wont prove that you do care

guess im just wired wrong, there's something broken in my thinking
when you say you have always loved me i just stare at you blankly, blinking

holding back, a floodgate of tears,i just cant let go
clinging to this love/hate cause it is all i know

my ears hear the words but my heart and mind just cant process it
strange cause you saying those 3 lil words used to be my greatest wish

you made me feel unwanted, unloveable,least not by you
wasted tears searching to fill the void in my heart left by you

i wish i could forget all the broken promises that drove me mad
now i question can i ever forgive you when i cant even bring myself to call you dad!
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