Hopes For Tonight

Life is killing me slowly. I feel like the world is crumbling under my feet. I reach for something- some one! They/it slips from my finger tips. I feel like Alice, falling down the rabbit hole. Except, I'm not Alice, and I'm not going to wonder land. I'm stuck in a hell every one calls life. I use to always believe love and hope would get me through everything. But, I've burned through all the hope I had. My heart has given up on love. And I'm drowning. I  look for a dream to get me through life. I look for hope to keep me alive. I look for a love to give me life. But the cuts get deeper. The scars last longer. The tears keep streaming down my face. The screams of pain keep getting louder. The thought of dying sounds better and better.
   I'm just a bright eyed girl, in a dark and cold world. Dying on the inside, hoping to feel alright. And on the outside, I try to hide the pain. But only certain people, can see behind the act.
       I'm just a girl, and I'm dying inside. Hoping, I'll have a better life, every single night.