Strugglin

I feel so alone
With no one to console to my soul
I can't stop the feeling of uncertainty
Of which way to go
I wish I had faith as big as a mustard seed
So I could move this mountain in front of me
O, Lord I pray that you will deliver me
From this evil world in which only the sinful prosper
For I do not love anything in this world any longer
Nor do I find any pleasure in it either
For I am bitter and become sour like bad wine
O, Lord how I wish you would translate me
And put out the pain that dwell within me
Set me on high in your kingdom and
Forgive me for my sins cause, I can't live like this no longer
I thirst for your Holy Spirit more than I thirst for water
My flesh is weak O lord hear my prayer
Please be strengthen me
For my enemies they conspire against me
They hate me cause
I want to be a vessel for your Spirit to intercede for the helpless and needy
And because I want to put old habits to death my old friends now look at me like I'm crazy mentally ill in the head
Maybe I am, but I don't know if they can even tell what is going on, they are so deceived by the destroyer, Oh lord wont you save us all?