#SpeakingFromTheHeart

Everyday you're there
Everyday i'm watching.....waiting
Waiting for something that could never be
Wanting something so bad I could feel it
Feel you.....
That's the problem with some dreamers isn't it?
Wasting their whole life dreaming
Not even acting upon it
Not even an attempt at making it happen
Just wishing
Just wanting
Makes you feel like an idiot
You beat yourself up, put yourself down.
And the more you want to say something
The more the fear destroys you
Devours you...
Swallows you whole..
Because what you crave doesn't crave you back
Doesn't have the same passion
Doesn't feel the same amazement when you stare it deeply in the eyes
Doesn't feel the same warmth from it's gentle embrace
Everyday I feel the emptiness
The emptiness of not having what I crave
Then i feel the pity
The pity for myself
For not having the courage to chase it
To scream at it
And tell it what i want
So I stalk it....
As creepy as it sounds
But strangely it's unintentional
I see you....everywhere
In my thoughts, walking by, sitting somewhere, in a book, on a screen
I can't escape
Your name, your face it never goes away
You are what I crave
I believe the world must know it
I can't explain this feeling
Maybe it's the way you bring a smile to my face
Maybe it's your style
Maybe it's you sweet, caring, persona
Maybe it's everything
There's just something about this....
This person you are
So.....Beautiful
Inside and out
Absolutely breath taking
My heart is so confusing at times
but i now seem to understand
I fall for the strange, the unusual, the abnormal
I crave the kind gentle soul that you seem to embody perfectly
Sadly these feelings are far from mutual
I'm not the one whose taken by your arms
I'm not the one who makes you smile
I'm not the one you love
I'm the one....that special friend who loves you dearly
who couldn't bear to see you in pain
who would harm those who stand in your way
who'd hold you in my arms and never let go
who'd wipe ur tears away
who'd take a bullet for you at moment's notice
Though i've known you for only a short while
I feel like that while has lasted my whole life
You could never be mine
I obviously don't deserve your tender heart
but by god i'd show you what true love and caring was about.
It's not just touching
It's not just what the eyes can see
It goes beyond just physical interaction
It's feeling with your mind and soul
It's looking into the other person's heart and seeing things the way they would
It's understanding and communicating

Love is a deep spiritual connection that shouldn't dare be played with
So i hope the person you're truly happy with treats you right
I hope they make life worth living
I wish you the very best
I'm sure they'll be everywhere i've always want to be
They've made one of the best choices they've ever made in their life
Being With you......
<3